Some Things Are Bigger Than Fireworks!

[PyroFL]

I just wanted to take a moment and acknowledge the heartbreaking news that was shared recently here on pyrotalk on a thread that will not get much attention. My heart goes out to you, brother. I can’t imagine the pain you’re going through, but I hope you know you’ve got a whole community behind you one that’s here for more than just fireworks.

This hobby has a way of tying into memories, traditions and the people we love. It’s not always about the show it’s about who we share it with. If you ever need to talk, vent or even just sit in silence with someone who understands the weight .. I’m here.

Wishing you strength through the darkness. You’re not alone.

Original post:

BIRDMAN -

If you haven't noticed I haven't commented since the post I made on this thread on the 4th. My 4th did not go as planned. Just as I was getting ready to fire the few cakes I brought to the cabin, I got word that my son had passed that morning from a self inflicted gunshot wound. In shock I fired the cakes but don't remember much. It's been darkness since. It's going to be hard to do 4th shows but I'm determined to carry on. I'm not sure why he chose the 4th to do this. I have to believe it wasn't because he wanted me to stop our tradition but rather because he wanted to be remembered every 4th.

Sorry to drop this on everyone but I felt I owed everyone an explanation as to why I haven't been watching and commenting on everyone's videos.

[Avetwithptsd]

So sorry about your loss

[BMoore]

I must have missed the original post. So sorry for your loss Birdman.

[Salutecake]

Wow, I can't imagine, so sorry.
Our prayers our with you and wish you peace, comfort, courage and lots of love.

[Firelinx]

Our condolences go out to Birdman and his family. Such a terrible loss, we're so sorry.

[Icooclast]

i, too am so sorry for your loss. i can't even imagine someone i love going through that. but i understand some what, i thought about doing it every day in most of middle school, and the thoughts were near constant when i was in high school. thought i didn't want to live from the bullying. but now i take 17 pills a day from where i checked myself into a treatment(a decade ago now). i was getting treatment for a panic attack that lasted days

they mad sure i was seeing the doctor every day. and she put me on the good, better acting, medications. the expensive ones. so, with the bully thing as well as other things. but though it worked (over time) long way about to say if you need to talk or vent or anything pm me. we can talk about anything you want.

[Birdman]

Thanks for the support. The healing process is slow but is occurring. I actually gave some thought to songs I may use next year the other day.


i, too am so sorry for your loss. i can't even imagine someone i love going through that. but i understand some what, i thought about doing it every day in most of middle school, and the thoughts were near constant when i was in high school. thought i didn't want to live from the bullying. but now i take 17 pills a day from where i checked myself into a treatment(a decade ago now). i was getting treatment for a panic attack that lasted days

they mad sure i was seeing the doctor every day. and she put me on the good, better acting, medications. the expensive ones. so, with the bully thing as well as other things. but though it worked (over time) long way about to say if you need to talk or vent or anything pm me. we can talk about anything you want.

I've been there myself when I put myself in a similar situation my son was in. I thought he was moving past the hardest times as I had. My daughter who probably knew my son better than anyone and has training to handle these sort things due to her line of work thought the same.

It's something most do not want to talk about, which is why I refuse to mask what happened. Since making it public you can't believe how many have come forward to me about how their loved ones took their life. Some that I was even told were due to other causes but now that I'm apparently "in the club" they are willing to admit to me the truth. My one wish is that these open conversations help someone else seek the help they need or help other realize this is not nearly as uncommon as the world makes it out to be. But I understand that may never be enough. At the very least I hope survivors will find some peace understanding they are not alone and I am determined to be the one that shows them life goes on if their best efforts, no matter how inadequate they feel they were, fail them or someone they love. Some good, any good, that comes of this is better than nothing.